Life.

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Lately, I�ve been feeling a tightness in my chest. Not sure where it is coming from because I know think I am OK. I don�t feel like I�m anxious but I must be. I wake up with heavy eyes that make it seem as though I did not sleep although I can�t recall tossing and turning. It�s confusing but I worry that my body is warning me of something. And I just can�t take anymore. I�m tired. I just want to be happy and healthy. I don�t need any extras; I don�t want any extras. I�ll take less that way I can be more. I may need more meditation, more prayer, more God. My mind needs to quiet all the negativity and the what ifs. The what ifs are taking away bits and pieces of my happiness. My smile doesn�t come as freely as it use to and I need it to. I want to feel like me and not like this pessimist version of Faith that wasn�t in my life until just a few years ago. Life feels like it is finally settling down so why can�t I? Why does it feel like I�m waiting for the next shoe to drop? I�m working on it; I need to work on it. Because if I know anything life is too short to waste time feeling this way. Because that�s exactly what I�m doing; wasting time.

I'm going to take this weekend to reflect and meditate and hope that by doing this I can refocus my thoughts and feelings. And maybe, just maybe, sitting down to blog (which is one of my most favorite things to do!) won't feel like such a burden.

I hope you all have had wonderful weeks and have wonderful weekends! ♥

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