Mother's Day without mom.

This will be my second year without my mom on Mother�s Day. It is strange because before my mom passed away I never really gave much thought about how hard this occasion is for those without moms/dads. I cared but it was fleeting and not personal. Now, I know and I�m disappointed in myself that I didn�t take the time to really think about how hard this day is for so many people.

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Anytime I see the picture below I smile.
Although my niece is crying for the balloon (give her the balloon Maryanna!) the joy in my mom's face means the world to me.
She was truly happy.

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For weeks leading up to Mother�s Day, it is all in your face, a constant reminder. The commercials, Instagram, blog posts, etc. Everyone talking about their mom and each time my eyes tear up. It is a hard pill to swallow that you no longer have a mom and the weeks leading up to Mother's Day, you�re reminded of it daily.

I�m not saying that I don�t want people to talk about Mother�s Day or their amazing mothers. Mothers are so important and deserve every acknowledgment; I just wish that I was also partaking in the celebration.

We�re heading to my mom�s grave for Mother�s Day and I'll bring flowers in her favorite color. I intend to talk to her as though she were sitting right besides me. I miss my mom. So, so much. I�m glad that I kept so many of her voicemails well before she got sick because they truly are getting me through so many holidays. Why I kept a 2012 birthday voice message from my mom is beyond me but I'm so glad I did because every birthday I can pretend that she called and left me a message.

Hug your mother. Hug her tight. Call her often and let her know how much you love her. I really wish I could. And for all the mothers out there, we see what you're doing. You are amazing and you're doing just fine.

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