Love Marriage

I shared in the previous post that I wasn't feeling the joy that the Christmas season usually brings. That changed on Christmas Eve. Usually, Sean and I do our Christmas Eve together. We order Chinese takeout and get a nice bottle of wine. We open stocking gifts and give the fur-babies their Christmas gifts as well. Then we watch "Love Actually" my favorite Christmas movie. Sean usually falls asleep but I watch it as though it is my first time. If we both are up to it we watch a classic like Home Alone (the first one, always!) and when I know that Sean is really done for the night I'll pop in other Christmas movies like "The Holiday". When Sean said that he wanted us to drive to Upstate NY the day before Christmas Eve, I'll admit that I was bummed but I went along with it. It's a 4+ hour drive to my in-laws and unfortunately we could not start the trip until 6pm so we didn't reach our hotel until 10:30pm. We checked in, situated the dogs i

Last year I could not wait to put up our Christmas d�cor. This year I did not have that excitement. I felt more like it was an obligation to do so; kind of like what is expected when you�re an adult. Even buying Christmas gifts did not get me in the mood which is surprising because I love shopping for gifts; but this year, not so much. Don�t even get me started on the wrapping of said gifts. I�m tempted to give the gifts we bought in the shopping bags they came home in. #imbeingmrsgrinch But I�m trying to shake it off, choosing to move with the motions and hoping that my attitude will catch up with the festive, happy feels I should be having. This is my favorite time of the year so it hurts me a little more that this year, it's just not. I took pictures of our tree and had intentions of taking a ridiculous amount of pictures around our house but once I was done taking numerous pictures of the tree I was over it. And if I�m to be honest, my house looks pretty much like it